Summing Up 2016

Here's a look back on my 2016.

I'll probably eventually finish the 2016 table of contents - no promises.
I'm 24 now. Wow, what a scary number. I think this age is a bigger deal to me than 25 is because that the Chinese zodiac goes in cycles of 12.


Relationships - Friends
I feel closer to the few I want to. I made a little effort to reach out to talk to and hang out with them. Although I don't think I tried hard enough, I'm happy with the progress I have made so far.
I also started spending more time with a long-time friend and we basically spent the majority of 2016 together.


Relationships - Love
I started the year completely happy and in love. Some things changed early in the year and that ended. I'm fine with that because I feel like I'm not mature enough nor ready in my life for a permanent person (to spend my life with.) Therefore, I haven't gone out nor put myself out there to attempt to find someone yet.


Career
Honestly, I have no idea what I'm doing or what I want to do with my life. I feel like a lot of people in my age group feels this way. But that is not an excuse.
I started the year in a job. I got a raise the month before I got fired. Then I got fired.
In my personal opinion, I was doing a really good job. I think I could definitely put this job on my resume and be proud of the things I accomplished there and the good job I performed - despite the problems there were and the fact I was fired.


Social media
My twitter followers went down a lot but it doesn't really matter because those fickle people are usually the "follow for follow" people. I just enjoy using twitter as a platform to say what I want in 140 characters or less.
On youtube, I had 113 subscribers when I drafted this post but now that I check, there are 118! Full disclosure though, 2 or 3 of the followers might be myself. I did go back and unsubscribe from myself on my random emails but my personal one is definitely still subscribed since I watch my own videos. Sadly, I have no idea when I hit 100 since a lot were sub for sub people and they eventually disappeared. I missed out on first milestone because of this but I don't mind. Youtube is same as twitter for me, a place for me to express myself in video form on the topics and events in my life I want to share. I have 481 videos right now on the last day of 2016. It's almost 500 videos! I'm thinking of just recording fun/interesting things in my life, editing it into a vlog, and upload it as private so I can go back and see what I did at that point in my life. (Currently working on editing a snowy Christmas with my family)


Knowledge
I've read more books this year than last year which makes me happy. But definitely not enough! I have a huge stack that I can't get myself to pick up yet.
Surprisingly, I have more music knowledge than I knew I had. I was watching the AMAs with my mom this year and I have to say, I knew more than I thought I did and I was quite proud of myself.
I kept up slightly with the election this year. And although I'm not happy with the result of the presidential election, I hope good things come of it. We just need to stay positive and hope he will do the best he can for the greater good of the country.


Media
Movies: I have watched so many movies this year! I have written list (which I'm not planning to type out) and I think there's somewhere between 50-60 movies just this year.
My favorite releases of the year that I've actually gone back to watch multiple times: Deadpool, Captain America: Civil War, and Suicide Squad. (Yes, there's a theme)
Shows I've been loving/still love: Crazy Ex Girlfriend, Supergirl, The Good Place, Westworld (I watched 6 episodes in one go because I started it when the season was almost over), Brooklyn 99 (still!), Lucifer, No Tomorrow, This is Us (the newest in the feel-good family show genre), and
Younger.
Things I've watched, liked, but probably won't watch again (or didn't leave a lasting impression): The Girl on the Train, Gilmore Girls: A Year in the Life, and Dr. Strange
Amazing movies that did leave an impression: Arrival and Moana. (I watched Moana yesterday and I cried the whole time.)


Health and body
I started the year with a new Fitbit (in February) and I walked/ran almost every day for a few months. But I slowly stopped when my sister moved home (and it got colder). Now I barely move and my body is such a wreck - so basically nothing has changed.


Diet
My diet is a little healthier than before. I drink a lot of water (always have). I don't have fast food/junk food that often - except Chipotle every once in awhile.
I'm also choosing less red meat options and eating more fish and chicken. I don't think I could ever become vegan or vegetarian because there's so many good foods that are meat. I do choose vegetarian options when I go out sometimes though.
I started eating poke! I tell people I don't eat seafood because I'd rather got to a meat place than a seafood place (hate the smell). But I did start eating poke and trying out different sushi.



In conclusion, I'm proud of myself in some quiet obvious areas and ashamed of others. I hope I can do better in 2017. I won't set a resolution but I will work harder to improve myself. I got a new planner - as I do ever year - and I plan to be even more organized with my life. I've watched so many bullet journal videos this year and even though I don't think I'm quite ready to start a bullet journal yet, I want to be as vigilant about my life as a bullet journaler. (And maybe sleep earlier instead of falling asleep at 10, waking up and not going to sleep until 2 or 3).

Thank you all for 2016. Let's make 2017 better!


I'm off to watch Star Wars Rogue One!









Drafted November 29, 2016
Finished December 31, 2016

November 10, 2016

I'm not a political person, I will never claim to be. I used to be proud of the fact I never read the news. I'm not much better now but at least I read through the trending news topics on Twitter and Facebook. Yes I know, not the most reliable sources of current events. But the recent election results have turned the whole world upside down. How are we expected to keep going if everything wrong that could go wrong is happening?
I woke up this morning and spent two hours crying because of all the reports of people getting their Hajib ripped off then robbed, women getting assaulted/touched, people promoting segregation to happen again, and hate speech written on walls and bathroom stalls.
I choose at this time to wipe away my tears, turn off social media, and attempt to bring positivity into the world instead of crying in my bed about the fallen world. I hope others will join me.

Let's Be Better

This is another shower thoughts

Sometimes I think about the person I'll end up with and wonder how long before they realize that they could do better.

Because, real talk, think about who you are right now and ask whether you are the best possible self you can be. Could you be spreading more positivity? Thinking less negatively? We're all secretly (or not so secretly) racist and sexists. And we all spend too much time thinking about ourselves instead of the greater good.

I know I'm not going to change any time soon and no single speech or heart-to-heart talk will be able to make an immediate change but really...we could all be better.


More to add later?

What's the Point

 Body confidence, confidence, or self-esteem: you can choose which ever combination of words you would like to label what I'm trying to tell here.
 I have issues with my body like many do. I know that at 5' 8" that 113 pounds is underweight, unhealthy, and a burden on my bones. I'm already experiencing side effects from being too skinny. I know I need to "eat a burger" and get my weight up but it's been nearly impossible for me. Sometimes if I eat a lot of food I will wake up in the morning having lost weight. Other times when I eat less food I will have lost weight from not getting enough. Nothing has worked so far and I definitely don't want to stuff myself nor eat unhealthy foods. Plus I have a pretty sedentary lifestyle yet my metabolism (thank goodness for that) has been keeping me thin - although too thin for my liking.

 But not only that I have had moments in life when I would literally punish myself by not letting me do certain things like eat - or even have the privilege of using the new external hard drive my dad bought for me to back up my dying laptop - just because I felt like I was a useless human being who doesn't deserve to eat nor exist. There's been days I would actually will myself to deny food and feel the starvation because I thought that I wasn't worth enough that day. Not the money nor time nor effort it took for my mom to make the food or buy the food. My body does not deserve sustenance because I am worthless and shouldn't be allowed to keep going.

 I don't think this is an existential crisis, I have a pleasant and comfortable life yet I feel like I don't deserve the life nor am I contributing to the world by being a human being on this earth. Sometimes I feel like it would make no difference whether I were here or not. But I don't have suicidal thoughts. It's not that I don't see a point for humans to exist if all we're doing is making the world worse before we leave it. It's that I don't think I matter enough to be here.

"Good" Advice 1

I replied to someone's youtube comment yesterday. She said she had just gone through a breakup and was having a hard time. This is what I wrote and I just wanted to share with people:




If it was a good break up, just think about the good times and you were lucky to have had. If it's a bad break up, take care of yourself. Eat whatever you want, watch whatever you want, stay in bed all day (if you can), put on makeup to make yourself fell pretty if that's what you need. 
Remember that you will feel better after awhile but don't try to force yourself to get over it by suppressing anything. Write in a private journal or make a private video venting all your frustration. You can even cry if you want! It will be private. And lastly, find someone you can totally trust and be comfortable around and talk to them a little at a time about what you're going through.







I did write something awhile ago about how I deal. Link here:
http://allthecatherinethings.blogspot.com/2016/04/how-to-get-over-breakup.html

I Think About People

 It's weird to say this but I think about people more than they know. I often wonder about my acquaintances/friends/coworkers/people on the internet. I think about how they're doing: If they are happy in their relationship? If they are not in one are they happy with themselves? Are they eating enough food and staying healthy? Are they getting enough sleep?

Those are just things I randomly wonder. Some other random things include: I hope she/he's enjoying the dinner he/she is cooking tonight. I wonder if she/he is reading that book yet. Are they watching that show I'm watching right now? Can I text them right now to talk about the thing I suddenly thought of that we both have an interest in?

Things like that. Thought I'd share. Have a good one everyone :)

Better Skin Challenge

I just made this up so bear with me. I'm attempting to give myself better skin by taking special care of it. I'm at an age where I only get blemishes once a month but the past few weeks have been a lot worse than ever before. I was reading/watching some stuff about taking care of your skin and set a challenge for myself. Since I wash my face more thoroughly at night and just rinse with water and maybe a light cleanser in the morning, the format will be a little different.

(will be updating this whenever I remember and resetting the post date as day of. But it is officially posted for the first time on August 25, 2016)

Below is a list of products I used in order of appearance:
-The Body Shop: Seaweed Pore Cleansing Facial Exfoliator (combination skin)
-First Aid Beauty: Skin Rescue Deep Cleanser with Red Clay (for sensitive skin)
-The Body Shop: Vitamin E Hydrating Toner. Alcohol-free (for all skin types)
-Equate Beauty: All-Day Moisturizing Lotion (non greasy)
-Fresh: Soy Face Cleanser
-First Aid Beauty: Ultra Repair Hydrating Serum (for sensitive skin)
-First Aid Beauty: Ultra Repair Cream Intense Hydration

Night 1 8/24: Exfoliate with Body Shop Seaweed, wash with First Aid Beauty Red Clay, Body Shop Toner, and Equate Beauty moisturizer. - Washed hair
Day 1 of Results 8/25: Wash with Fresh Soy cleanser in the morning. Woke up in the morning with a hot lump on my cheek - the one where you know a pimple will form. Instead of waiting three days for the pimple to form, the white ripeness appeared in the afternoon and I popped it right away. Just a quick squeeze to get the white stuff out and that's it. Swollen went down by night time but is still a bit red. Also the chin blemishes I've had for the last two weeks seem to be laying flat and just healing over.

Night 2 8/25: Exfoliate with seaweed, wash with red clay, toner, First Aid Beauty Serum, moisturizer, and First Aid Beauty Repair Cream on spots
Day 2 of Results 8/26: Morning wash with soy cleanser. My cheek pimple went down completely, you can still feel the small dry skin bump from where the skin broke the day before. It's just a tiny red dot and I'm hopeful it'll be gone tomorrow. Face feels nicer, I've been working on touching my face less which I think I'm starting to control better.

(Writing this stuff up on 8/29)
Night 3 8/26: Seaweed exfoliant, red clay wash, toner, serum, moisturizer, repair cream. I kinda squeezed out a few of the black and whiteheads on my nose and chin. One of the bigger nose ones started bleeding (oops). Splashed some water on it and it stopped; I'm sure the repair cream will work wonders for that. Skin definitely looking better - although it might be my positive thoughts.
Day 3 of Results 8/27: Don't really remember but I did put some eyeliner and mascara on and it didn't look terrible because my skin had cleared up so much just after a few days of this experiment.

Night 4 8/27: Seaweed exfoliant, red clay wash, toner, repair cream. I was too tired after a going to the mall with my friend today so I didn't do the usual routine.
Day 4 of Results 8/28: Ate some yummy brunch today, I'm pretty sure it will end up in my face in the upcoming days but we can hope it won't. But face feels great!

Night 5 8/28: Seaweed, red clay, toner, serum, moisturizer, rose face mask I got from my mom, and washed my hair! After all the greasy food (also had sukiyaki for dinner) from the day, it was super nice to wash everything clean.
Day 5 of Results 8/29: I know I'm not supposed to touch my face but I couldn't help it today, my face feels so smooth and perfect! Although pretty late into the afternoon, I started to feel a hard lump in my chin (probably will become a pimple and ready to pop in the next two days.) I'm really annoyed that I keep getting blemishes on my chin. So often that it's kinda permanently red from all the squeezing I've done.

Night 6 8/29:
Day 6 of Results 8/30: I could not stop touching/patting my face all day at work today. I know you're not supposed to touch your face (maybe that's why people wear makeup!) because oils and germs but I can't help it. My face skin feels so smooth and soft. It's amazing! Oh yeah, chin thing is gone. It was like one of those whitehead like things that you can pull right out of the pore. I did that and now it's fine.

Night 7 8/30: Seaweed, red clay, toner,
I'm getting tired of writing these things every day. I'll probably just add stuff when something interesting happens.










Thoughts:
-Reason for doing this: I never paid attention to skin care (nor anything care) instructions until recently. I've been watching and reading a lot of beauty/lifestyle videos and blogs so I've been wanting to get more into it.


Products:
-The Body Shop: Seaweed Exfoliator
 Bought this with my mom during The Body Shop's buy 3 get 3 (or something like that) sale. The things in it are a little rough so maybe don't try it on your whole face if you're a bit more sensitive until you find out if it's okay for you. I personally like the feeling; and it smells great!

-First Aid Beauty: Cleanser with Red Clay
 Got this in my July Sephora Play box. And I have to say, I am absolutely in love with it! It is a gel consistency and has a weird smell that I'm not a fan of. But I have a really oily t-zone and after using it, the t-zone feels as smooth and non-oily as my cheeks do!

-The Body Shop: Toner
 The bottle is pink and my mom swears by it (she gave me half a bottle to use). I still don't know what toner is but I'll use it like a good girl.

-Equate Beauty: Moisturizing Lotion- I believe this is a walmart brand
 I actually thought the brand was "All Day" until I wrote this post. A bit embarrassing to say but I've had this same bottle for a few years. I needed one at the time so I went to get it at wal-mart. I chose it because it smells a bit like my mom/her bed back when I was little and would crawl into bed with her at night. It's exactly how her pillow used to smell. Not sure how it smells now but this moisturizer is such a great smell to me. It's 6 oz so it's taking me quite a long time to use.

-First Aid Beauty: Ultra Repair Hydrating Serum (for sensitive skin)
 Received this on 8/25 in the First Aid Beauty free trial. No opinions yet. Not sure what a serum is for though

-First Aid Beauty: Ultra Repair Cream Intense Hydration
Received this on 8/25 in the First Aid Beauty free trial. No opinions yet. Apparently this magical lotion/cream is supposed to heal you really fast. Looking forward to that!

I Tried Spotify Premium for 3 Months

I had to cancel my Spotify Premium today so I thought I'd do a little review on it.

There was a great promotion for 3 months of Spotify Premium for just 99 cents for the summer season of 2016. Of course I jumped right on that! I'd like to say first off that I would totally keep the Premium subscription if my car had bluetooth connection. Unfortunately, my car is from 2004 which means if I had wanted bluetooth, I would have to buy a dongle thing and connect it to my car. My dad bought one for his car a few years back and I remember him saying it was expensive or something like it's not worth it to get more than one. That and I don't really drive anywhere far enough to enjoy music for long periods of time. It takes me 3 to 8 minutes to drive to work depending on the traffic lights of the one road I need to travel on.

 Perks of having Premium:
-Being able to skip to the good parts of a song. (But this is available on the desktop version)
-Being able to pick which song you want to play instead of shuffle play (also available on desktop)
-Saving songs into your phone for offline play
-Being able to see previous song played and next song played - this has to be my favorite feature

The only downside I saw was when I chose to downloaded one of the playlists I was following and it would constantly be downloading new songs because they kept adding new songs to it and changed the name of the playlist.

Final thoughts: If I had a car with bluetooth/aux cable and I drove a lot, I would definitely want to have premium (if it were cheap)

Being able to select time inside the song

Ability to download playlist

Viewing previous song

Funko Legion of Collectors July 2016 Suicide Squad Box

Hello everyone, I uploaded a video of the unboxing for the July Legion of Collectors box. Below is the video and pictures of the contents of the box. Enjoy!

Legion of Collectors July Box

Harley Quinn Box Cover

Inside of box

Katana Badge & Deadshot Pin

Everything in the box

Closeup of Deadshot pin

Closeup of Katana patch

Closeup of Enchantress Funko

Suicide Squad Funko Set

Issue #1 of Suicide Squad Funko Cover

Joker Figure

Harley Quinn figure

Out of the box

Suicide Squat T-Shirt

September's Theme

Time

 Time is an interesting concept. I always say I don't have enough time to do anything (go places, see people, experience things, etc.) But when people ask me, I always say I don't do anything with my time. I spend most of it laying in bed watching things on my laptop. I guess my definition of something means doing something worthwhile. 

 I know it's my fault and I have no right to complain but I just don't have motivation to go out to do things. That and I hate going outside. Sure if it's somewhere or with someone I'm comfortable, I will be totally fine. But the idea of an unfamiliar surrounding just freak me out too much. Maybe I'm sheltered, maybe I over think things, but it is a problem I'm aware I have. It is also a problem I am not yet ready to solve. But hey, acknowledgement is the first step right?

Adolescent Angst

I don't know how to express myself anymore. Lately there's been so many things happening and I can't talk about it to anyone because they're personal or secret things with/about other people. I feel like I've just been bottling it up inside and it's going to make something bad happen some time soon. I hope it doesn't but I'm worried it will. Also my quarter life crisis from turning 24 (year of the monkey) is even worse lately.

It's One of Those

 Do you ever have one of those friendships where you just know it will last forever? My friend whom I hang out with almost every weekend and I met a few years ago (I think 2013) when I was still in community college. He's been friends with me throughout all 3 of my relationships and we've kept in contact through all of them so he knows what I'm like when I'm in a relationship (aka don't talk to friends and spend all the time with the bf).
 But even though the friendship hasn't been that long, you just feel like you've been friends since forever. We enjoy the same things, watch movies together every weekend, it's just one of those best friends feelings - although he would never give me the label of best friend because he's unemotional like that.
 Tomorrow is his birthday (yay!) and I got him a notebook a few weeks ago from Moleskine (more on them later) with his initials embossed on the front. It's the Professional Notebook (link) and has a few pages for table of contents, each page is numbered, and there's different sections on the pages for different things. It's perfect for a person like him who needs organization and who likes to write things down. I know of his many notebooks of short stories and coding notes so I know he needs something better and handier and not just a million notebooks here and there. Also included in the birthday package is a bouquet of flowers which unfortunately will arrive while he's at work but I've made sure that someone will be home to receive it for him. The flowers I got actually match an abstract painting we picked out for him a few weekends ago.
 It's just one of those friendships where you feel like you know everything about a person and you spend all your time together but it's still not enough because there's so many things in the world to explore and you know the other person won't leave you or abandon you and there's no hurt feelings.
 Once we actually had a talk about how both of us are afraid of commitment. Like, who does that? Nobody actually has a conversation about non-commitment and not liking to make plans too far in advance. It's just something we have in common and something we once discussed in passing during one of our many phone conversations.

 Welp...happy early birthday to one of my favorite people - for now. Even though he'll never see this.

"Down in the Dumps"

 My sister won't let me use the word 'depression' because I'm not clinical. So I'll just use the term "down in the dumps". I've been extra emotional lately and it's been a mix of lonely, uselessness, and rejection. A few hours I actually made the decision to cut my hair. I took my pair of left handed scissors and chopped off a few inches. I don't even know how it looks since my hair is curled and it's naturally straight. I guess I'll find out after I wash it.
 I've done this before. One night when I was still in my early teens, I was really upset at my parents. So when I was supposed to be sleeping that night, I took a pair of scissors and cut off 6" of my hair using just the light from the small night light in the bathroom.
Other times in the past when I've been upset I'll get a proper hair cut or dye my hair. Just something to signify making a change in my life. Although I guess it's not a symbol if it's literal. It's just how I feel when something happens in my life. (Breakups usually....)

That's it. Tl;dr - feeling sad, cut my hair, I do that when I'm feeling sad

Sunday Night Blues

Sunday, May 22, 2016

 After going to the city for a whole week and walking around/being busy, the thought of going into work on Monday morning and sitting in an office just seems so menial and trivial. I really want to make a lifestyle change and do something for myself this year. I hope to have a plan that I can follow through and to complete it before this time next year. I think I'm ready.

  2016. Year of the monkey. 24 years old. I am ready for you.

May 2016 Travel Thoughts

Monday, May 16, 2016
 I am currently sitting in a Capital One/Peet's Coffee cafe in San Francisco by myself. My parents and I drove up here yesterday and they dropped me off at my uncle's place to spend the night with that part of the family. I woke up this morning at 7am with the kids (my favorite cousins) for them to get ready for school as I got ready to head to work with my uncle.
 We took the Caltrain for about a 40 minute ride. Once we got off the train there were so many young (my age) people walking to work with their heads bowed staring at their phones. While they were doing that, I was checking out the different companies they worked for. Apparently if you work for a well-known company, they'll give you a cool bag with their logo on it. A few of the ones I spotted in the first 10 minutes of walking among these people: Fitbit, IGN, Air b&b, and LinkedIn.
 This made me think of my current job - which I am writing a blog post about, should be up later this week or early next week - and how crap it is. I'm making barely minimum wage, if I weren't living at home with my family and my parents weren't paying for everything, I would not survive on the meager $12/hour I am currently getting. Plus the job requires a lot. At first I thought it was going to be a simple assistant job with interesting things to do once in awhile. The initial few weeks were just sitting around doing nothing and waiting for instructions from the boss. It eventually turned into me having to do the job of 2-3 people but with no raise nor respect from management.
 Okay I got a little ranty there. What it made me think of was how little I am getting and how much I am doing at a job where there is no mutual respect with management and where I don't agree with the morals of the company. It also made me realize (although I already knew this deep down) that I would like to work at a big company with more structure and definitely a contract so I know what to do in certain situations and I can't be expected to do the work of more than one person without the compensation for it.
 I decided on Thursday of this previous week that I will be submitting my two-weeks notice when my coworker comes back from her vacation. Because I'm taking this week off and she's taking the first week of June off. The boss would have experienced what it's like to have one of us not there and realized how crucial both of us are to the operation of the day to day. I'm also going to try to start working on my resume this trip.
 My original reason for not leaving the company when the asking for raise thing went down was that I didn't want to leave my coworker - the only other person working there - alone because she is not able to speak Mandarin and I'm the one who does the artwork for the orders and that is a very big part of the order. I've finally decided that it is not worth it. Being a nice person is important to me but working at an establishment with bad morals and disinterest in other peoples' needs is not a place I want to be in.

Stay tuned for more.

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Reality is Real

 October of last year, I made a post about getting a new job and how excited I was about it at the time. (Link here) Now it is seven months later and things have changed. I've made a bunch of videos (and probably blog posts) about what a terrible supervisor my boss is. The reality of working at a small company is that you have to take up a lot of responsibilities because there's no one else to do it. I'm currently working at a place that sells optical crystal awards that can be customized/engraved to the customer's preferences.
 When I was first hired, I was told I would be an assistant who would help with office things and try to get the social media accounts up and running. I got the Facebook page started which is what my boss wanted me to do but he doesn't realize that you need to have followers or else posting things is just irrelevant. When I was trying to get the Facebook page set up, I told the boss (and his wife who works from home for the company) that we need to update our website and our email signatures to include the Facebook link because there's no other way to get our name out there that I know of.
 Now that task was a flop, I also had to help with one of the two companies that they have in the office. One of the companies is a wholesale and the other one is a supplier. I still don't really understand the difference but I am the one who takes the calls and processes the orders for the wholesale company. It's quite simple, most people just want one or two items blank so all I have to do is make an invoice and get the items from the back.
 Another thing I had to do was go in to our warehouse and write with pen on paper the location of every single box of product we had. That took a few weeks because there were seven aisles of merchandise piled up to the ceiling. After writing it down by hand, I had to input it into the computer on an excel file. I sent that to the boss early December but she didn't even upload it onto the company's joint google doc account until January. Over the December holiday, she made a list of all of our stock and sent it to me with the power to edit the numbers of how many we have. So now every time someone takes something out of the stock room, I have to mark down how many removed and where on the warehouse map it was removed from. (New role: warehouse manager?)
 Around February, one of my two coworkers wanted a raise, tried to quit, got a raise and ended up with less tasks than before he got the raise. Then our company got suddenly busy and I had to pick up the phone for the supplier part of the company and help process some orders because the guy who got the raise wasn't doing any of the work.
 And then come March, my boss decided to purchase and install a graphics program into my computer and tell me to learn how to use it because I will start doing the artwork for the people who want to personalize their awards.



Bad morals. We often get calls with issues and we have to say "it's in our terms" even though the terms were just updated and they are completely unfair. they're just there to save the skin of the management. they don't even make sense

How to Get Over a Breakup

In my opinion, all breakups should be mutual or at least civil. I know it's not always possible but I feel like they should at least end on good terms or at least where you won't kill each other when you are in the same room.

Step 1: Cry
 Even if you're the one doing the breaking up, no longer having someone in your life every single day is an awful feeling. I am a crier; I cry about a lot of things,  but for some reason if it's something personal or emotional, I can only cry about it for a day or two. The rest of the time I will feel sad/depressed but no actual tears. (Give me a Harry Potter book though, I'll just cry about it every time I get to that part)

Step 2: Make a lifestyle change
 For me, my hair has always been something I changed whenever entering a new chapter in my life. I used to cut it or change the color to correspond with my relationship status. I've never been sure whether it's been a coincidence or just a need for something different.
 Other than the physical appearance, I might change myself socially. If it was someone who I never went outside with much, I'll try to find reasons to go out more because it felt like I was being held back. Usually I'll just find a good friend and hang out with them a lot until I feel better.
 Another thing to do is to start eating differently or being more/less active. For example, I recently started running and taking my dog on walks more because I found myself with a lot of free time. It makes me feel better about my body because I had a sedentary life plus I'm finally gaining weight as a result of the increase in food consumption from the activity.

Step 3: Closure
 You may or may not think about the other person sometimes. If things didn't end well, you could figure out what is it that still bothers you (if something still does) and express those thoughts and emotions. Whether it's through writing or creativity or through conversation. Luckily, I have this platform and I could probably make a rant video about everything that went wrong. But don't get me wrong, I don't regret having the experience of the time together.

Step 4: Moving On
 My definition of having moved on means not feeling sad (nor any other negative emotions) whenever thinking of the person in question. Sure there will be nostalgia sometimes but my goal is to be able to live my life happily while being grateful for having had that person in my life but no longer needing them in it. I would never wish for someone to be forgotten because one of the worst things in life is not mattering.


Of course there's way more to it than this (probably includes a lot of junk food and sugar for those who eat that type of stuff) and each person deals differently. But these are just my 4 quick ideas of how to get over someone that I thought up in the moment.

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Am I Selfish?

People (it's really just one person) say I'm selfish because I like to talk about myself or change the topic to me when having conversations. But think about it, who is the leading expert on me other than me? Of course I'm going to talk about myself more than I talk about others. Anything I say about someone else will be based on the limited knowledge of the person I am speaking about. And no, I don't think I'm selfish when it comes to this. I am a very empathetic person as in I am able to put myself in someone else's shoes and feel the emotions they are feeling.

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Summary of Things Blog - see just about how many things I watch
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Personal Instagram - Just a bunch of selfies (not really) and Disney things
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Real Life Things

I asked my boss for a raise because I've taken on the task of 3 people since I started the job 5 months ago and he gave me a review (results were good) wanted to see me improve in the upcoming month before considering giving me a raise. Are you kidding me? I'm going to start asking around for job prospects right now. Yes, I know it's Easter weekend but I don't care. I'm pissed. I told my co-worker I'm not leaving yet because we just had one guy quit last week but I am going to start looking.

Basically this:

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Things Aren't Perfect

 People always think that their friends are happy because of the pictures that are posted online or what they see when they hang out with couples. But they don't realize what actually goes on behind the doors when there's no one else around. I've always been in controlling relationships. It starts out great at first because every one is smitten and trying to be as appealing as possible. I always come straightforward about the fact that I've always had guy friends because I can't deal with the politics and drama that comes with being friends with other girls. But whenever I get deeper in a relationship, the person I'm with becomes jealous or controlling about me having guy friends and hanging out with them.

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Tigger Adventures Instagram - my Tigger toy loves going on Disney adventures with me
Personal Instagram - Just a bunch of selfies (not really) and Disney things
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My Irrational Fears

 I was talking to my friend the other day about how annoying it is to be me sometimes because of all my irrational fears. A lot of my fears are of things that go bump in the dark.

For example, I can't be on my street when it's dark outside because I live on a street with a curve and I can always imagine a scary kid with a blue glow dressed in white walking around the bend and then suddenly appearing in front of me and that will be the last thing I see.

Or any time at night, I can't look outside at a dark window because I'll be imagining a ghoul in a dark hood floating in the window outside my room staring at me ready to kill me.

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Cat's Disney Obsession Blog - I really love all things Disney
Summary of Things Blog - see just about how many things I watch
Tigger Adventures Instagram - my Tigger toy loves going on Disney adventures with me
Personal Instagram - Just a bunch of selfies (not really) and Disney things
Snapchat: cattyliu816
Facebook Page - I post blog updates and random links I find online (check this last)