Feb 16, 2019
I woke up at 6am on the dot this morning in tears from a "nightmare" I just had. In this dream, the guy I've been seeing was hanging out at my house after we've been out doing stuff all day (the same thing happened in real life this night.) But before he left, he tells me that he has decided he "doesn't think we should see each other anymore" and just leaves my house.
Of course, I'm devastated. I'm trying to collect myself enough so I can go to his house to talk to him to see why he has made this decision for the two of us and not elaborated. And then one of my other friends drop by. At this point, the guy had somehow come back to my house and dropped off everything I have ever given him in our relationship. - This part was less realistic because I didn't give him any of the furniture that he dropped off in my dream let alone have I ever seen these items in my real life. - The friend who drops by proceeds to carry everything into the house (I didn't even open the door to let him in. Dreams are weird) and leaves everything in a pile on the foyer.
I am in shock and just keeps asking this friend to "can you leave right now I got to go I'll explain everything later." "I need you to leave right now." "Get out now." He doesn't leave until my mom and aunt come home into the house. Some cousins are already miraculously inside but didn't appear until now and the two moms start saying stuff like the soup is ready, it is time to eat, etc, etc. I am still trying to leave the house so I can go find out what is going on. And my mom keeps calling me to eat. I say "I don't want to eat right now, can you leave me alone?" (Things I've actually said before because sometimes when I get into a mood I don't want to eat and I don't want to talk.)
This part I'm more fuzzy on: I get to him or maybe I'm on the phone with him. I just know that I am talking to him. I ask what happened to us, why is this happening. And then the last thing I say is "Why are you doing this? Tomorrow is community day and we made all these plans!"
See that last part is funny. Because today, (Feb 16) is Community Day in Pokemon GO. And the last thing I said to him before he left my house the night before was "See you tomorrow?" for our Community day plans. What made the dream hurt so much was the beginning and the ending are so close to what happened in real life before going to sleep. And of course, the being broken up with part.
I woke up and started crying. I know I wasn't sobbing but there were tears streaming out of my eyes. I may have cried out at one point. But I glanced at my phone for the time, wiped my tears, wrote down everything I could remember, and tried to go back to sleep. Probably slept for only 2-3 hours more but I felt so heavy in my heart and mind.
